What do you do when you watch someone's life slowly disintergrate in front of you? You see the train wreck coming. And they can't hear the whistle blowing. Are you tolerant or intolerant. Do you want to be tolerant and don't know how? Or have you become intolerant and don't know how to cut the ties?
What do you do when you yourself are involved in a train wreck about to happen and neither can pull the other back? WHAT DO YOU DO? Do you stand by your friend no matter what? Do the two of you hold on tight and shelter each other through the storm and the fall out? Are your ready for the deletion of life as you've known it? Are you strong enough to stand your ground regardless? Can you stand? Although your convictions may leave you wide open. Personally, I recently discovered I've fallen into a void on both of these issues. I know what I have always said I would do if certain things happen. But when life begins to scream in my face my standards answers may not have been good enough and it causes me to take pause. Because now the points changed. The real is always so different. It becomes not so much what to do but what do I feel about the issues and what to do. Then an even deeper thought grew and announced itself. I had thought all this time if a certain kind of circumstance ever came up I would feel a certain way, accordingly. And come to find out I don't. What do you do with a predisposed set of emotions that doesn't fit the existing mold? A void is created. And how do you fill it?
These are just some thoughts I had when I came across a period of what I like to call Living Out Loud. I guess sometimes your day to day speak louder than others...
Saturday, May 3, 2008
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